Am I safe right now
Do I need to hide or duck?
Is this my country?
Two miles from my home a shooter killed his advisor. Many young freshmen and older faculty were called into lock down. Complete terrorism.
When will our government change the gun laws? When?
Just broken hearted again.
art prescription 
A 15 year old shot and killed a 16 year old during a high school football game causing more mayhem and injuries as players and spectators try to flee the scene. Was this my alma mater? My hometown? My country? Stop the bleeding. Please.
You sound as overwhelmed and sad as I am.